Friday, November 10, 2006

Realization

Wow. What a moment I have just had. In reading different sections of scripture and a few friends blogs, something has hit me. I know that my prayer life has been somewhat suffering lately and honestly through out my life has had it's up's and down's. But here is what I have come to realize: My God wants me to hash it out with him. He wants me to wrestle with him, to complain to him, to tell him of my anger and pain, to cry to him, to GIVE it to him. There are times I have done just that, but not to often. I know that prayer is our communication with God, and he yearns for us to talk to Him. But I think subconsciously, I have always tried to block those things from God, like he really didn't need to hear them or he had so many more important things to handle than my concerns. How untrue are those thoughts! My God does not have an answering machine for prayer requests. He doesnt leave me on hold, or tell me that I have to take a number and wait my turn. He hears my prayers right then and there- He knows them and has answered them before the words leave my mouth. He has given me comfort before my words of anger and pain leave my lips- If only I would tell him! How great is the faithfulness of our Father! If only I can keep my faith in Him strong and truly believe Him. To get my complacent self up and get to the grind for God. Only with His help can I change the things I need to change, and get my life on track (consistently) with His will for my life. Seasons of growth- all necessary, but sometimes quite painful.

5 comments:

laura bull said...

I sooo agree with you friend! I think too often all the stuff that I feel like I can't share with God I dump on others... i.e. Gary. When in reality God is sitting... waiting for me to come to Him. Not to say that talking to others doesn't have it's value too... but it can't always bring the peace that our God can amidst the craziness of our lives' here in this world. I look forward to the day in heaven when our "talks" with God don't have to be long distance! God bless you my friend! Keep on keeping on, because you're headed in the right direction... to the throne room of God!

Anonymous said...

I'm getting there, too, Marie, & sometimes I wonder what is taking me so long?!?! Why is it so hard for me to put that trust in God, after all He's done for me?! Thanks for sharing so openly & honestly. I love how we're helping each other grow together over the miles!

Heather said...

Our God is strong enough to handle us. He WANTS us to hash it out with Him. It only serves to strengthen our relationship with him. Take David for example...Know that God is always near us, holding us in the palm of his hand...

Indie said...

I'm reading Prayer: Finding the Heart's True Home right now and its fabulous.

Anonymous said...

I agree with Indie, it is a wonderful book that I used to prepare for the retreat at Argyle. I don't know what to say, except that God knows, he is gracious and continually waiting on us. And I know that when we do pray and talk with him, he isn't holding us up to say, now why haven't you been coming to me? He is just so glad that we are coming. Not that the question isn't important to look at, but often times I find myself avoiding God because I'm afraid of his reprimand when he is truly aware of my humanity depths more than I am.